Chapter 10 - Yellow Notebook, Open Windows

Two years later, the paper star was still taped to Sofia's door.
New layers of tape held it now, reinforcements added over time as the old adhesive dried and cracked, a small ongoing act of preservation neither of them ever discussed out loud.
Some things, once nearly lost, you learn to hold onto more deliberately.
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Sofia was nine now. Taller. Louder, in the specific, wonderful way of a child who has stopped calculating the cost of taking up space.
She sang in the shower again, constantly, off-key, a rotating playlist of songs she half-remembered from the radio, and Mateo still banged on the door sometimes and yelled encore, and she still laughed, the real laugh, unguarded, every time.
Nora, at two and a half, had picked up the habit too — singing nonsense syllables in a register only toddlers can reach, utterly unbothered by key or rhythm, delighted simply to be making noise in a house that welcomed it.
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The yellow notebook had been joined by two more since — green, then a soft, worn blue, each one filled cover to cover with the ordinary accumulating record of an ordinary, safe childhood.
Spelling tests. Best friends. A complicated feud over a stolen eraser, resolved within a week. A drawing of the whole family — Mateo, Sofia, Nora, and, this time, a golden retriever they'd adopted that spring, all standing together under a lopsided sun, no one facing the wrong direction, no one halfway out a door.
Mateo kept that drawing on the refrigerator for a year before Sofia finally let him frame it.
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Renata never did request supervised visits again after that first letter. Whether from her own reconsideration or the quiet advice of lawyers, Mateo never learned and never asked. Some doors, once closed, were better left that way, and Sofia, when the subject came up rarely now, only shrugged.
"I don't think about her much anymore," she said once, at eight, matter-of-fact, stirring her cereal. "Is that bad?"
"No," Mateo said. "That's what healing looks like sometimes. Not thinking about it. Just living instead."
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Dr. Abara's sessions had tapered, over two years, from weekly to monthly to, now, a twice-yearly check-in that felt more like visiting an old friend than therapy.
"She processes things remarkably well," Dr. Abara told Mateo at the most recent one, while Sofia colored quietly in the waiting room. "Better than most adults I know, honestly. She has a strong internal sense that her voice matters. That's rare. That's something you built, together, after everything."
"She built it," Mateo said. "I just finally started listening."
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On the second anniversary of the hallway — a date Mateo marked privately, silently, never mentioning it to Sofia unless she brought it up first — he found her sitting on her bedroom floor, going through the old shoe box.
The pink notebook lay open on her lap, faded now, its unicorn sticker fully peeled away, lost sometime in the intervening years.
"You okay?" he asked, from the doorway. Knocking first, always, still, a habit he would never break again.
"Yeah," Sofia said, not looking up. "I just wanted to read it again. See how far away it feels now."
"And how far does it feel?"
She considered the question with the same careful gravity she'd once brought to every sentence in that notebook, weighing its weight before she spoke.
"Pretty far," she said finally. "Like it happened to someone I used to be. Someone I still love. But someone I'm not anymore."
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Mateo sat down on the floor beside her, the way he had that first terrible, necessary evening, and looked over her shoulder at the old, round handwriting of a frightened seven-year-old who had, against every instinct telling her that no one would listen, decided to write the truth down anyway.
"You saved us both, you know," he said quietly. "Not just yourself. Me too. I don't know how long it would have taken me to see it, if you hadn't made me."
"I didn't make you," Sofia said. "I just gave you the paper. You're the one who read it."
"Both things can be true," Mateo said, echoing, without quite meaning to, words she'd written to him once, over dinner, in a different notebook, in a different, gentler season.
Sofia smiled — easy, whole, unguarded — and closed the pink notebook gently, the way you close a door on a room you've finally, fully forgiven for what happened inside it.
Down the hall, Nora called for her, laughing about something the dog had done, and Sofia rose, tucking the notebook back into its box, and went to see.
The hallway light was warm.
The door stayed open behind her, the whole way down.
May you like
And nobody, this time, was afraid of what waited on the other side.
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